...i'm just a ghost...

Girl is lonely. Girl meets boy. Girl dates boy. Girl likes boy. boy loves girl. girl freaks out. girl ignores boy. boy is crushed. girl meets boy. girls meets boy. girl meets boy. girl meets boy. girl meets boy. girl meets boy. girl meets boy. girl meets boy. girl meets boy. girl meets boy. girl meets boy. girl meets boy . girl meets boy. girl meets boy. girl meets boy.
...
girl meets new boy. girl likes new boy. new boy fucks over girl. girl is hurt.
girl seeks revenge. girl meets old boy. girl is angry. girl is lonely. girl is fed up.
boy still loves girl. boy wants girl. boy would die for girl.
girl goes back to boy. boy doesn't trust girl . girl knows it. girl is crazy . girl trusts all. girls goes into the night with other boys. girl lies. boy knows but believes. boy cheats.
boy fucks over girl.
boy breaks girls heart.
girl is crushed.
girl has never felt this way.
girl doesn't know what to do.
whore disease girl and stupid boy have ruined girls life.
boy and girl try to figure things out. girl is hurt . girl is angry. boy is hurt. boy is angry.
girl forgives boy. boy loves girl. boy would die for girl. girl loves boy. girl wants to be happy.
girl and boy fight. girl and boy make up.
girl and boy.
collision of your kiss that made it so hard.
girl and boy.
whore won't fuck off. girl doesn't trust boy. boy is weak.
girl knows what to do.
girl can't do it.
what does girl do.
..



GO!
To un-explain the unforgivable,
Drain all the blood and give the kids a show.
By streetlight this dark night,
A séance down below.
There're things that I have done,
You never should ever know!

And without you is how I disappear,
And live my life alone forever now.
And without you is how I disappear,
And live my life alone forever now.

Who walks among the famous living dead,
Drowns all the boys and girls inside your bed.
And if you could talk to me,
Tell me if it's so,
That all the good girls go to heaven.
Well, heaven knows

That without you is how I disappear,
And live my life alone forever now.
And without you is how I disappear,
And live my life alone forever now.





Can you hear me cry out to you?
Words I thought I'd choke on figure out.
I'm really not so with you anymore.
I'm just a ghost,
So I can't hurt you anymore,
So I can't hurt you anymore.

And now, you wanna see how far down I can sink?
Let me go, fuck!
So, you can, well now so, you can
I'm so far away from you.
Well now so, you can.

And without you is how I disappear,
And without you is how I disappear,
Whoa whoa... (And without you is how I disappear)
Whoa whoa... (And without you... is how, is how, is how...)
Forever, forever now!

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i hate quotes.

i have always been the person who hates inspirational quotes. I really really do. blergh vomit. ppl put them on their facebooks, myspaces, text msg them, email them, write them in greeting cards, put them on fridge magnets and other shit house things or worse....use them as a source of spicing up the romance in a relationship. yuck makes me want to vomit in ur eye. call me cynical (indeed i am) but, inspirational quotes are just a bunch of emotional, worthless smack talk made up by lame lame lame glass-half-full losers nerds who take safe pathways through life and who go around the world telling people how to be as fucking fantastic as they are.

with that said.

i came across whilst google browsing a whole site of Marilyn Monroe quotes and i enjoy them very much.

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."
— Marilyn Monroe

"It's better to be unhappy alone than unhappy with someone."
— Marilyn Monroe

"Women who seek to be equal with men lack ambition."
— Marilyn Monroe

"I don't want to make money, I just want to be wonderful."
— Marilyn Monroe

"You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself."
— Marilyn Monroe

"I restore myself when I'm alone."
— Marilyn Monroe

"The nicest thing for me is sleep, then at least I can dream."
— Marilyn Monroe


True dat. kinda wacked that shes dead.
she was a gemini for the record.
and also does the above photo not look like the perfume ad for sarah jessica parker's lovely fragrance.
i'm right.
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songs seem to be my only voice these days. how pathetic.

I WANT TO BE ALONE TONIGHT

F.O.O.L.I.S.H.

my days are cool without you.

I love sambuca ! you are such a warming drink ... it's like a big licorice hug and the blue flames wave at you saying everything is all okay !
^_^
yummi

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u can say what u mean it won't change a thing

He fumbles at your spirit
As players at the keys
Before they drop full music on;
He stuns you by degrees,

Prepares your brittle substance
For the ethereal blow,
By fainter hammers, further heard,
Then nearer, then so slow

Your breath has time to straighten,
Your brain to bubble cool,
-- Deals one imperial thunderbolt
That scalps your naked soul.



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your lies are as hollow as your damned soul.

hlpme

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Archie Comics

I fking [ love/adore/makes me so so happy ] the Archie comics. I think i First started reading them when i was about 9. anyway. they make me happy. i find fewer & fewer things in life these days make me happy. archie comics are one of them. i hate how archie fucks around with betty and veronica though. as if he could ever ACTUALLY get either of them if it was real life. but i suppose that is the fun of it. i like to think of myself as veronica. i will crush you betty becoz i am and always will be better than u.
^_^
VERONICA = WINNER

Meanwhile the only other thing making me happy is another beloved brunette.
...
Katie Price aka Jordan.
i love her and watch her show What Katie Did Next.
its on Lifestyle You.
i LOVE zis show & i love everything about her.
judge all you will but please refrain until you've watched her reality show.
you don't know her like i do ok slutz?

lacking motivation for blogging slash reality slash life in general these days.
i'm going to make myself feel better now with a long luscious time spent with my hair straightener and get my nails painted.
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so basically i dig chavs ...

*Faints with delight*
i have a thing for shaved head/violent/passionate/smartarseborderlinefuckwit/abusive/angry/powerful/psychotic/obsessive/most definitely british only....type
**Note**(this little type casting i enjoy does not apply to revolting bogan australian jocks. they are well gross. Only exception to this rule are sexi wog boiz and that dude off prisonbreak.)


so i'm sure you can see why i bought this excellent film based on its cover alone last week on my break at work.
best film i've watched in awhile i'm sure not one people would expect me to enjoy.
It's not a feel good movie but i just really really really enjoyed watching it.
got really involved ...thought it was so realistic and raw (so sick of THE U S AND OF A film/tv)
the violence is epic ... not in the way that it's like disgusting or grotesque like horror films.
just because it's a more realistic kind of violence...boys losing their minds and just attacking.

The lowlight for me was Elijah Wood.
Basically...elijah wood has a vagina / every moment you see him all you can think is WHERE IS SAM AND GOLLUM AND MY GOD I HOPE HE GETS RID OF THAT RING SOOOnnn.....
oh wait its not fkin lord of the rings that is just elijah wood's irritating lack of facial expressions
...awkward...
also just that basically elijah wood is a pussy the whole film and then like thinks hes a hard bastard by the end and shit....
just like....yeah wow no elijah you don't...go back to the shire...



watch it. the last fight scene i cried in :(
and i think the main and most obvious reason why i loved it is my new found love.
Pete aka real life name Charlie Hunnam
Oh hello beautiful chav !!! let me stroke your luscious shaved head !!!


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hu h8z slut whores? courtney h8z slut whores.

i heard this song AGES ago. radio losers.
i never listen to the radio because i hate :
irritating / obnoxious / self obsessed / ur not fking funny at ALL people on each & every radio station.
anyway heard this on the radio at work this morning and was thoroughly pissed off.
this song makes me feel like getting groovy, riding in a convertible in bikini suntannin ma hawt bod wit sunglazzez on & giving ppl the fingr.
lol.
any1 wana come? hehezzz.

Or like walkin up to fat bitches in da club who wanna grind on ur man and havin a dance off.
and doin da whole finger snap and hair flick.
bittttttttttttttchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
honestly being single is the only life 4 me .
for me for me for me.
^_^ ^_^ ^_^




Rant For Today.
yes it has been awhile my friends.
Touching on a topic today regarding that african circus dude with HIV/aids whatevs going round rooting chicks giving them the virus.
http://www.abc.net.au/news/stories/2010/05/25/2908964.htm

now.
I understand that if you have a disease such as aids etc and you knowingly have unprotected sex with people that clearly you are liable to be prosecuted.
And clearly in his situation this is what he deserves blablablaaa .
Anyway basically i feel like guys brains switch off in sexual moments and they basically want to go for gold and whether they knowingly have a disease or not is not even going to cross their minds. / impregnating you is also of little significance.
So i wish women (BIG FAT DIRTY WHORES) would stop fucking around and blaming their diseases / unwanted pregnancies on the no condom factor.
what I fail to understand is why the fuck didn't the women want him to put a condom on.
Why the fuck can't women take fucking responsibility for themselves.
If you don't want a disease/a baby then make him put one on you fucking idiots.
"omg YOU GAVE ME AIDS U DIRTY AFRICAN CIRCUS MAN"
"WAH WAH I'M AIDS INFESTED"
omg he wasn't so dirty when u wanted his big black cock all up in you last night was he?
It's your vagina. You decide what gets put in there.
sluts.
Courtney hates sluts.
Don't you Courtney.
yes. yes. i do.
the end.

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it's not rihanna or gaga but its still gud

awsummmmmmmmmmmmmmm
dayum gurllll




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laterz brisbane ya slut

Goodbyeeeeeeee brisbane you hole.

hello melbournia.

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yay.

SO I AM EMO FUCK OFFk

he took photos. what am i going to do now.
why is is what is right is wrong and what is wrong is right.
always.
wrong right wrong right . wrong.
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Did U Not Kno? ne1 hu can tuch u, can hurt u

Work was fun 2day.
other i would take utter delight in strangling rude customers.
also.
mini warm jam donuts from donut king are the greatest !
! nawti lil treat !
now to remake my bed hehe.
this may seem weird but i like to wash my bedding twice.
Once on a cold wash to get rid of dirt because heat embeds dirt and stains.
then after the cold wash
i put it on a hot wash
(NOT WARM FOR GOD'S SAKE WARM WASHING IS POINTLESS AND IF YOU DO IT I HOPE YOU GET DISEASES BECAUSE IT DOESN'T DO ANYTHING EXCEPT NOT CLEAN YOUR CLOTHES PROPERLY AND CREATE BREEDING GROUND FOR MORE GERMS)
yer yer my mother does do washing etc...
but i do it better.
i enjoy cleaning/laundering/n shit etc.
one of my favourite past times is picking out fabric softener.
heehee. I picked creamed rice this time !
i dream of a world where i live in my perfect house and have every single fabric softener flavour so every wash can smell different.
or each member of the household gets a different scent.


( i may have OCD )

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Bow down , get on your knees.

LOVEZ MASELF.
reow and xtina.
reow x 2. and lovez supre.
hehe
dontcareifuthinximgai
your just jel
xxxxxxxxxkissesxxxxxxx

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sort your shit out then roll.

Have you ever thought your brain has too many thoughts.
I have thought this.
Thought.this.
Think.this.
Know.this.
You will never know another person's true thoughts.
They may DESCRIBE them.
(& lie slash leave out parts)
But you can never truly know them. Just think about it.
What to do with all these thoughts? they are causing me major brain pain.
and thinking of what others are thinking.
&guess&what& i'm sick of thinking.

yofeelwotisayinnigz?
now letz get 2 sum chillinz coz tomozo is the day of Fri!!!
and now chill to the streets whilst enjoying my favez photos of today that underlyingINGLy reflect yours truly and her odd brain through visual imagery.
WHAT A TREAT OMG!!!!

idontdofeelingslol

You left me boundaries of pain
Capacious as the sea,
Between eternity and time,
Your consciousness and me.

emily dickinson rox yo!

2 the m00n & the starz

Cold & Rainy 2day.
What a wicked lil treat !
^_^ muahahaha ^_^
I bought industrial strength hand cream today.
My god. My hands will slip off things if I lean against
them and I will hit my head / fall over...that is how soft i plan on making them.

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i'd prefer to ignore you.

kfkoff.now.
lollllllllllllllllllllz



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I'm wearing lipstick again(not2dowithfashion)

i love the tuxedo mask so much.
if ever there was a cart00n character i would like to lay beside it would be him.
Speaking of ultimate dreamboats...
i was google stalking as per usual and was looking up pictures of rain.
Anywhoo.
this dude popped up under 'rain'.
his name is Rain Bi.
He's a Thai singer.
/ major heart throb.
also he's a cancerian that's why when i saw him for a split second i felt a connection straight away and stalked further 2 enhance our deep love. (cough i'm a big creep cough.)
Anyway due to my INTENSE psychic powers i realised where else we had connected before.
I watched this korean art house (weird) film called
"I'm a Cyborg, But That's Ok"
Great film about love in mental institution.
was amazing defs can recommend it.
And here's the man himself.

caress he's amazing.
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When there's nothing left to burn you have to set yourself on fire.

Great idea right about now !
**lights match to self**
I feel like death last night was intoxicating/ cold /til early morn
& my heart is still racing.



That's right.
I'm not sorry.

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